sometimes i feel like my life is so damn screwed up. like right now. why do people plan their daily lives so...properly and into great detail. I cannot believe how organized i was in the beginning of this year. my march hols schedule went like that:10am-11am: Do 1 newspaper article11am-12nn: Do math assessment book pg 56-68how perfect is that? and i actually completed every single thing that i listed! right now, i really wish i can be just as disciplined as before. however difficult and totally "perfectionist" it is, i really wish i could be like that now. but why do i feel as if it's utterly impossible for me to reach that stage of nirvana? why do i feel as if my life is so cluttered and messed up i don't even know what's happening around me anymore? even though it's a little too disciplined and perfect, i just need to use this side of me for this period of time. or rather, needED. why do i regret only at the last moment? why is it always the last minute that you realize you have wasted about all the time you have and try so hard to salvage it? why is it that after so many mistakes and regret in the past years but still, i make the exact same mistake? but again, is it really the mistake or the feeling that comes to me everytime the exams are one day away? is it nervousness, unprepared-ness, guilt or really, regret. what else can i say?"We should regret our mistakes and learn from them but never carry them forward into the future with us." Lucy Maud Montgomery1st October-the start of exam papers slapping me in the face, asking me why didn't i study hard enough-the day i'll cry in regretfulness-the day newspapers will finally be thrown into my house at 6am (but it'll be too late)-the day i can reach home before 2pm since forever-the start of a life-changing experienceLabels: bad days
got me singing like, nananana everyday, 7:27 PM.
